Sprinting 4ever

today was wonderful!!!!!! But i have a cold sore though from kissing philander so much... but i don't mind (: i haven't seen him much this week though because he's been visiting his aunt's uncle's great great grandma and giving her skiing lessons. 

so todays run was fun. i went on a 10 miler with my friend Barb (she's my neighbor's cousin's friend from high school). the weather was kind of bad, there was SNOW EVERYWHERE!!! so i went out at 2 in the afternoon and finished around 5pm. i really am getting faster! I'm 79 pounds away from my goal! (please comment and tell me how excited you are about that!)... i went to my doctor today and he was really happy with me. He said my iron level is getting too low though so he said i need to eat more meat. so i went to my neighbors house and shot their dog that had been pooping all over my yard and ate him...cause you know what they say: dogs will go where dogs will go...unless there DEAD!!! hahahahahahhahahahahahhaha i love that quote, cause i hate dogs. but they have a pretty good taste. it's hott stuff! 

on a side note, Philander said he has a surprise for me on thursday! i'm so excited! i think it might be a ring! :-) hehehe

...today was terrible. I haven't slept for 36 hours, nor eaten. i mean, i've lost weight but its been really sad..ok let me start from the beginning:

So yesterday Philander called me and set up a breakfeast date. i was very excited because he was taking me to my favorite resturant: McDonalds!!! he said i could have as much food as i wanted to celebrate my success thus far. that night i went to get a pedicure, manicure, got a hair cut, and then went home and took a bath in oil and candles with a layer of vasaline, so that i'd be super soft ;) ...then i went to bed and set my alarm for 5 to get in 2 miles then get everything ready for my date at 9:30.

He picked me up and we set off for McDonalds. on the way we talked and laughed and sang to the songs on the radio..it was very romantic. he seemed to be building everything up for a proposal so i just went along with it. we got there and i ordered 10 different things which i wont mention. i got a seat in a corner where no one could see us and when he came back with our food, he set it down and then got to one knee!!!!! ...but he just tied his shoe and wiped his nose. anyway we continued to eat and then we finished, and NOTHING HAPPENED. i was so mad when he dropped me off, that i wouldn't even let him kiss me. i just got out of the car and went in my house then, crying, watched him drive away.

the next 3 hours i just sat on my couch thinking about what happened and realized, he didn't do anything wrong. maybe he just wasn't ready! i felt kind of bad, so i decided i'd drive to his house and apoligize and let him get some of my kisses! so i hopped on my scooter and went to his house a couple miles away. when i got to his house i went to the back of his house like i usually do before i knock on his door and looked through his back window. and there he was! kissing and playing footsies with another girl! i was in shock. i couldn't move. i started crying and ran back to the front of his house, grabbed my scooter and went home!

ever since then i've been crying on my couch, not being able to do anything but stare at the ceiling remembering that view. all this time i thought he loved me when he was with this other girl! i dont think i could ever forgive him! ...i dont know. i'll talk to him tomorrow about it and see what he was doing. maybe it was a stuffed animal or something...cause you know what they say: if you see your boyfriend making out with some other girl...it may be their stuffed animal!! hahahahahhoohhwaaaaa!!! i hope thats what it is :(

It's over...me and Philander are through. i never thought this day would come. i always dreamed we'd get married and die in each others arms. but fate did not agree with my idea.

After a rough night of tossing and turning i woke up looking at the ceiling again. slowly i got up and began making a light egg/tomato/spinach/shrimp/milk shake (with my secret ingredient:dirt) it brought me a bit more to life. then i went out to my grandma's track and (as Bam [my new friend{on the blog}] suggested) began doing 200's (without the wheelbarrow) i got to 16 before i fell on my face, and i started to cry again. then i got up and decided to find out the truth! i ran to his house and (without going to the back and checking in first) i broke down his door and walked right in. There he was playin' croquet! like everything was fine! i walked right up to him, and he asked if i was feeling ok, and that i looked sick. i stared back at him. then after a bit i asked him what he did after he dropped me off from our date.

His knees began to buckle and i could tell it wasn't his stuffed animal. After a while of him not saying anything, i knew it was true. so i walked right up to him, pinched his nose hard and ran out the door!

Now as i was running home i couldn't hold back the tears. I could hear Philander calling out for me from his house but of course i wasn't going to turn around after what he had done to me. But now i'm done. we're over. Philander made his choice and even if he still loves me and only did that because he was starving for affection, it doesn't matter. I will not stand for it.

All that matters to me now is getting my weight to where i want it and i'm sure i'll find another man to obsess over. I set up an appointment with Dr.Looper as Bam suggested and i'll have a chat with him about my problems this Monday. Maybe something will start up with him :-)

My sessions with Dr. Looper have been good. He's helped me a lot lately and i'm getting back into running. I joined a group that goes every morning and they are all very friendly. the 8 miles just ZOOMED by. i've felt very happy the past week. i think breaking up with Philander has been the best thing since the cow jumped over saturn...or was it the sun?? i dont know, but it doesnt matter, you know what i mean.

I've official joined that group now and i'll go with them 4 times a week. Dr. Looper is setting me up with a new trainer that will help me cut the remain 70 pounds. I'm sure his suggestion will be very efficant and i'll lose it in no time! Just uploaded my steak box! I'll be eating well tonight (:

Btw thank you all for you comments, its been very fun for me to read them!

first of all, i'd like to clarify the whole Philander thing. that person who claims to be him on this blog, is not. i recently found out who it really was: Remember how i went to see Dr. Looper on monday. well, i told him my whole story of course so he could give me advice (which he did) and turns out that a 14 year old immature boy had been listening behind the door the whole time! so he thought he'd play a joke on me and pretend to be him on the bog. But no worries, i found where he lived and sat on him till he promised to delete him and stop it. but if he doesn't just ignore whatever he says.

ANYWAY, met with the group again and went 6 miles at 9:30 pace. felt kind of sick and had to stop 4 times to use the restroom, but my group waited for me thankfully. I'm starting to make some really great friends! when i got home i streched a ton then is some P90X to work on my cardio. the man that Dr. Looper set me up with has been sending me workouts through email and it has been working very well.

P.S. i saw the girl philander made out with at kmart (she doesn't know who i am) and i went over and 'accidently' knocked her into the shelves...and she somehow got knocked out from that...so i didn't know what to do because i didnt want to touch her filthy body so i just ran away instead...because you know what they say: If you knock out a girl at kmart, Dont eat her hamster!  hahahahahahahahahhahahahhahaha oh man, i love that quote. anyway, i talked to you later!

nice easy run with my group. planning on a 10k race next friday!!!!!! i'm SOOOOOOOOO excited. it will be amazing! my goal time is sub 1 hour. i know i can do this. i didn't get a lot of sleep last night because i was up late looking for a good race. none of the people from my group want to do it but i just really want to. if i cant find one i might just end up making one up around my house and have my dog time it. just kidding hahahahhah dogs can't do that. i'll probably ask Dr. Looper to do it after my appointment on wednesday. but if he can't i'll call my mom and she'll come over.

great week with good milage. no updates on Philander...i've had a couple people from the blog call and ask me about if and i'll tell everyone how i told the people who called me (from the blog) WE ARE done. thats all there is to be said.

My life is rather wonderful right now!